Lovely frolic on the beach today. I am too sunburned to lay out again for a while (4th of July five-hour sunfest may have been a bit much), so I just spent an hour walking the shore and splashing in the waves, wearing a loose tank top most of the time to protect my fried little tummy. It was glorious – the water is simply amazing now.
Any time I speak what I feel, or call someone out, or make a point – however politely – I still end up feeling like a b*tch! Or guilty, at the very least. Or doubtful of my position in the first place. I thought it was supposed to be liberating?!
I guess what is liberating is not caring what people think… But it seems I’m not there yet. I really don’t like to make people feel bad. Or annoyed. Or any kind if negative emotion.
Maybe it’s boredom, but I am seriously on a roll planning my EuroTrip for next spring. The only problem is the more I read and research, the more I want to see and do…! #notime #nomoney #oyvey
Chuck gets watermelon and eggs for the 4th of July! It’s the little things… 🇺🇸🍉#soexcited #countyourblessings #happybirthdayamerica #deployment #milso #usmc
Happy birthday, ‘Murica!! @missymmm7 @jordybu @stepniix #dc #usa #america #patriotic #4thofjuly #independenceday
I get a 4-day weekend for the 4th! One of those days is unpaid leave of course, since the Chamber is broke and our contingency plan requires us to take 2 unpaid days off per month, but that’s okay. The weather forecast is beach-perfect 🙂
Otherwise, I’m not sure what I’ll do for 4 days. I’m used to really full and busy Independence Day weekends. Things are pretty quiet here – but I’m not particularly in the mood to be social anyway. I just wish I had functioning internet at home!
Lately I’ve been watching Sex and the City DVDs. I’m on Season 2. I must say, I used to hate that show and everything it was about. I think it was because I couldn’t relate to it. I wasn’t in relationships, wasn’t dating, wasn’t having sex. But now I’m finding it pretty hilarious. And interesting. Parts of it still make me cringe to see how it’s influenced a generation of young women, so I can’t get 100% on board, but it’s good entertainment and has some relateable insight here and there.
Amazing…ly true!
Katy Perry fantasizes about boxes of kittens too!!
Worried about my mom these days…. She sounds like she’s crashing. Her voice sounds small and lonely. She is out of money, in pain from untreated dental problems, and eating meals provided by local Catholic charities that serve the homeless – but feels so guilty about it that she’s volunteering and cleaning there (so typical of her!)
She tells me stories of the other homeless people she meets, and even manages to giggle and find humor in some of the situations. I miss her laughter. She even called me “sweetie” and asked about Chuck…
The delusions are still there – I have to remind myself of that – but it’s hard to hear her say “I so wish I had a friend.”
#Hopeless.
“Try to learn to breathe deeply, really to taste food when you eat, and when you sleep, really to sleep. Try as much as possible to be wholly alive with all your might, and when you laugh, laugh like hell. And when you get angry, get good and angry. Try to be alive. You’ll be dead soon enough!”
– Ernest Hemingway
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