Life & Love

Chuck gets watermelon and eggs for the 4th of July! It’s the little things… 🇺🇸🍉#soexcited #countyourblessings #happybirthdayamerica #deployment #milso #usmc

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Worried about my mom these days…. She sounds like she’s crashing. Her voice sounds small and lonely. She is out of money, in pain from untreated dental problems, and eating meals provided by local Catholic charities that serve the homeless – but feels so guilty about it that she’s volunteering and cleaning there (so typical of her!)

She tells me stories of the other homeless people she meets, and even manages to giggle and find humor in some of the situations. I miss her laughter. She even called me “sweetie” and asked about Chuck…

The delusions are still there – I have to remind myself of that – but it’s hard to hear her say “I so wish I had a friend.”

#Hopeless.

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Currently reading:

Anna Karenina by Leo Tolstoy. I expected a tough read, but it’s actually not that bad, with the exception of the long names that I can’t pronounce. Luckily, Tolstoy repeats the full names with almost every reference, so that helps me keep the characters straight.

Chuck and I are reading it together, so we can discuss it together (and watch the movie when he gets home!) Supposedly it’s touted by some as one of the best novels of all time. We’ll have to see about that!

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Watched “The Land Before Time” last night…

… and I must say, that movie is kinda deep!! Of course, I was also crying like a baby throughout. The same way I do when I watch any movie from my childhood these days. How are they children’s movies in the first place?! There is some serious material in them! They’re not all fluff and innocence.

I guess it just went over my head back then, and I focused on the cute animals and the happy endings and the fun music.

Seriously though. Dumbo. Cool Runnings. Anne of Green Gables. Bambi. They’re all so much more powerful now! Everyone go watch!

Goodbyes are never easy, but friendship really is forever @katyrobinette @emilyfulp…

…NC neighbors are moving to Key West! I’m not sure how sad I can really be with a destination like that though 😉

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Dance Nostalgia

I’ve really missed dancing the past almost-two years. It’s been a part of my life in one form or another for as long as I can remember – ballet  on and off from childhood through high school, Dance Team, high school musicals, and pole dancing. Last night I randomly decided to watch my old Syndicate videos (fun fact: I co-founded a hip-hop dance group in college… don’t laugh), and even though we really weren’t that good in the scheme of things, you can see how much fun we all had with it.

That’s the thing – I’m really not that great at dancing (maybe for your average white girl I am), but I just love it. I loved performing too, but there aren’t many outlets for that as an adult without being truly professional and competitive. That’s one of the reasons I tried out for NFL and NBA teams back in DC – because it’s one of the few opportunities to perform without being a pro dancer. Not that I was good enough for that either… 🙂

Hopefully once we get past the GA stint, we’ll be some place where I can get back into it. Miss those endorphins!!

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Woke Up Naked This Morning…

That tends to happen when I sleep fitfully! I think I get hot/frustrated in the middle of the night and rip off my clothes. Haha! I am always confused in the morning. And a little cold. I couldn’t find my night tee anywhere this morning but eventually found it scrunched up in a ball under my pillow.

I’m not sure why I’m having so many issues sleeping this week! It doesn’t bode well for my quickie trip to NYC this weekend. I need some beauty rest!